All 'that' stuff...

My brain doesnt bother to move a step ahead and think more these days, all its stuck on is my future- which seems to be in the dark. I think all my blogs and my talks sound the same and thats why most of the listeners around me yawn pretty often. My useles head has given up thinking...and I have become boring. Waise when it comes to speaking, I'm quite unstoppable, I remember people used to say to me 'tu chup kab rehti hai', though that was back in school, now I'm a lil quieter than the usual me. Speaking is fun.

Diwali's gone..gone..gone. you know suddenly everything becomes so quiet n all but this diwali was fun and I became rich on bhaiya dooj and since then I have a smile on my face. money talks baby!!
There are some super fundu people bothering me these days- actually they aren't, but I just feel like that there existence is quite enough a botheration to me, though I'm not exactly in touch with them but they deserve to KNOW what I can do. This is actually not too much of a deal to me but eh I'm hell bored today.

I have fallen in deep love----with my phone and that too after getting a super cool software in it- ahmm its a dictionary and a thesaurus and its better than my big fat dictionary. lame? so?? i love it. hehe
I mixed up the meaning of pretentious and precarious today. They don't really have anything in common except for the letter p.

I dunno what am I so hyper abt???!!??

ah... ingepo (tamil gudbye i suppppose)

Try Saying This Rapidly and Continuously:

Cheap ship trip.

^_^

In happiness, in pain, in love, in agony and in "whatever".

The first year of happy blogging completed.
Aaaaaaand its been good. No, Grrreat!!
Afterall Li'l Miss Priyanka could do something.

Initially writing down something on broadband, which, by the way, the whole world could see, was too much an ordeal for me (not that they were waiting.blah.). I plunged myself into a pretentious mission and made a blog. Well, here it is, not any different than the scraps I used to have in a torn diary but only better. Those tit bits are now fit into a well formulated blog. I enjoy writing, reading and I enjoy what it brings into me. It tells me that I can be better, teaches me that I can be good and worse at the same time which is good in its own way. It makes me hang on to the memories which might just get lost in my brain otherwise. Its anyways full of gibberish. It gives me strength to be creative.

The BOTTOMLINE:
I'm a happy blogger.

So here goes a cheers to, uh- well, me and my blog!

Now, Don't you call that a SMILE!!!

I feel like I'm in 7th std. again- the way I got crazy for a Hrithik when he was new.

But just to console myself I look at this guys face and then say "bahut ho gaya". You know Im a grown up now. But just loook at him. where do you have such guys? he should be preserved sumwhere just to be looked at. Masha-allah!

I told Mom yesterday to find me husband like him..hehe...n she was like you are crazyy!!...lol

Anyways- I saw Jab we met. Its a crazzzzyyy movie. very cute. Kareena is looking good. even Shahid for tht matter. He's been himself for the first time.

The music of saawariya is soo soothing. also hear the song in jab we met called tumse hi...its beautiful and much better if you're in love!

Tumse hi din hota hai

surmayi shaam aati hai

tumse hi tumse hi....

FUCK title!!!!

Why is life reminding me everyday thats its gonna be hell out there....
I just wanna cry...mannn what the hell am I supposed to do. Lately I realised that whats the harm in being a lecturer?? isn't it? wont it be cool?

I love English but do I love it to that extent? And would I (in extra capital bold) be doing an M.phil n Phd??? ( ha ha )

• Journalism has gone down the drain
• MBA is like the only thing that "pays".
• PG courses have lost value. read the above line again.

What else

• UK is too expensive.
• USA needs 16 years of Education, We Indians just have 15.
• Australia is just desperate. period.

So, I just wanna saw WOW....

Before anyone gets hypercritical....(even me for tht matter)

The blog below is a slaughter... It usually comes out when Im in total loss of words along with an uncontrallable need to write something!!!

Enjoy, if u can!

I have no clue to what the following is about....

I never feel I can take a decision by myself, a mature decision. I feel like no matter how old I keep growing up I am still stuck with a mind of a 13 yr old. Feels like Im retarted at some level. It seems that there could never be a time when I throw my hands up in the air and say " that's the way it should be". Seems that there has to be a militariatic regime that I have to follow (I don't even know if that's a word). It's time I learnt I could do something, Be something/one. I have tried, to be something different with a motto or maybe i wanna say motive here, whatever. Things that I do are too easy. Watching TV is easy, eating a big bowl of popcorn is easy, thinking of what to wear next day is eas--at times--y, thinking of what next for getting angry is easy. Writing a blog, who no one really cares about by the way, is easy.

Doesn't seem like fun now does it?

I think I need to go bungee jumping, or skydiving or something...

Sometimes life takes hold of one, carries the body along, accomplishes one's history, and yet is not real, but leaves one's self as it were slurred over.

~~Sons and Lovers by D.H. Lawrence

So, I'm twenty!!


Its gone.....Allll gone.....the teenage is over now!!! uwaaaaaahhhh!

Well so is the brooding..err MOURNING- i have to get used to it now, I'd rather start behaving like an adult. People tell me that I don't act my age- I wonder if thats said in a nice way or a bad way...

There's lots that i wish to do now: I wanna change my dressing sense, my attitude, I wanna grow up a li'l bit, wanna kill someone (yes i so do... don't wanna name that creature), wanna start taking my eductaion seriously, wanna become responsible, wanna stop being the 'Emotional Fool' queen....crap!


Right now?
I wanna shut the fuck up with this nonsensical figment of imagination.


I loved my 20th birthday- I was climbing Vaishno Devi and hyperventilating (not complaining-its all worth it). But it was amazing- first i get to cut a brownie at CCD there and celebrate, then, I get to see the Ind-Aus match at bhawan on a black n white miniature tv with a hell lotta strangers and shout on our win- it was soooo coool!!! Not to forget the Darshan- It might sound lame to a lotta people (err aliens) but i had an amazing time!! barefoot on the cold stone pathway-brrrr! its crazily soothing.

Can you believe it? 7 big years of teenage are gone, vanished, disappeared, departed, GONE!!!!!!
oh well let me just stop the melodrama now and accept the fact tht I'm twenty!
*sigh*

Today is Mum Dads 27th Marriage Anniversary- I didnt do anything spl- ashamed *red* but they like it simple!! so happppy anniversary to them!!!!

Arbitrary Deliberations

Looking at some things and wondering why it exists or happens or whatever is ...well..a waste of time. But they make me wonder...and I have personal issues against them, I might sound judgmental...

1. The whole new MBA deal- it sounds like a pact between two nations or maybe the entire world that start giving MBA in langars to all the people- its the newest trend you know!! My foot!!
2. Why are we still called "blacks" and "browns"?- The people who discriminate Indians and the like after the British are Aussies- Why don't we call the Aussies TRIBAL PEOPLE?after all thats what Australia is, the British are born Losers so why care for them.
3. Do you not care for the better of the country?- If Himesh Reshammiya can cover his head, what is the fucking problem with covering his eww*&$@*& chest- for the love of god someone please tell him it doesnt appeal anyone- it doesnt even make anyone think you are a man. He's also stuck up with the word "genuinely"-just count the number of times he says that next time you see him speak.
4. The next time you see SRK in Om Shanti Om just take care while you be judgemental about him- they are not six pack abs- NO- they are EIGHT PACK ABS. That's just too great an addition to the already *pride of the nation abs*. Man!!
5. Ricky Ponting looks like Jerry Mouse - the evil version. don't you hate him? ok Maybe you don't but I do with all his Blabbing in the Tribal accent.
6. Lost is the most amazing series I have ever watched- maybe it is too tied but its amazing. James 'Sawyer' Ford is HOT!!!!
7. Compromise is an underestimated word.
8. I think Ranbir Kapoor is going to be good...he is kind-aaaa cute- I was the first person to say for him "bakwaas" but my head took a toll.

Quote-

"Living is easy with eyes closed"- Charlie's tattoo in Lost.

Everyones a boss...ya ya be one!!

Why does everyone love to give comments and pravachans and all that shit....WHY??? I know it's easy but don't underestimate anyone, telling you..
It's frustrating when people start judging you and that too when you don't expect them to, I hate it, I have a life and I know what its going to be all about. I have a right to do what I want and can.

If someone thinks I can't do something, they are out of tune then. Talk when I am Something....Someone. You'll watch!!!

A Pigment of the colour of Life!

You know what is really weird?
That everybody on this planet has to deal with something or the other that isn't supposed to happen in their life.
But it happens.
All you can do is snap out of it. or keep Knowing that it happened.
The choice is ours. Yours.

Sometimes some things are Wrong but you know you can't deal without them. It just can't happen then!
Sometimes you know its not Right but you can't help.
Knowing that something is wrong and something is not right are two different things. Think about it.
But they have happened. are happening. will happen.
Life is THAT!

Someone said this to me today-

"Don't be afraid of doing anything that is not wrong, and its you who decides what is wrong and right, because it will always be about you!"

Unexpected wisdom out of someone. But it had implications. Not that I am in a situation that had this blog as an outcome, but you just learn like that.
Making decisions, trying to figure yourselves out- it takes a whole lifetime- and when you've known what YOU have been all about- it's all gone.

There are time in My life that makes a difficult situation. It's because I created it. But sometimes when I fall in one- its hard!

Just learn Life. slowly.

Krrrr-aaappp is the word!!!

SNAP in 2 months-oh Crap!
Final year- Oh crap!
What next- oh crap!
Everyone's preparing for either CAT or CA...and me- oh crap!
First semester gone- oh crap!
I'm gonna be 20 in like 12 days- oh-holy-shitty-smelly-bog blob of crap!!!!

This isn't exactly a poem by the way.

I don't wanna be 20!!! twenty- eww puke. nineTEEN- this is cool. I took one year to digest the fact that I'm older than eighteen and after I got over it I am 20... *nahiiiiiiii*!!! huh!

Anyways, its just 2 more days for the autumn break- its no autumn but its still called that way- weird!
so just wanna have fun these two days in colg- it'll be off for 15 days after tht!! Wow...
Shradha wouldn't come the whole of October and November- boo hoo!!....its her sis' marriage n shes preparing for CAT so she has to cope up with everything.

Apart from that everything is upside down for me. What the hell am I supposed to do now??? I didn't enrol for CAT so sweet dreams to me, I'm not a Mathemagician and Accountamagician and a psychedelic geek so cant opt for CA too...I guess i'll umm do err maybe hmm- crap!

So basically Im just hanging on between big potty stuff- I guess those philo uncles and aunties were right - Life IS tough!!!

The only thing that isn't crap is----as follows------

INDIAAAAAAAA WONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wooooooooooooooooooooo-hoooooooooooooooooooooo--yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeHawwwwwwwwwwwww

It was soo much funnnnn---- We Beat the PAKISTANIS--- yeah baby!!!
The thrilll the fun the excitement....mannn!!!....Loved Bhajji's dance....hehe

And I got this Sms tht day n thot it was worth sharing:
Knock Knock
Who's there?
Misbah
Misbah who?
Miss ba 5 runs!!!!

LoL

It felt good looking at the fire crackers that day- even I burst a few....hee hee!!
Goodie!!

I'll jus scram!

Too long...

My number of blogs have got reduced or sumthin...n its been really long since i wrote the last one.
Anyways, lots been happening...with me, with others, with sum ppl i dun bother about and some whom i dun give a*you know what*. I don't understand why people really care so much to bother others when their own life is nuthin but a huggggeee JEEERO..heh heh
and i dun really wanna make them 'influenced' by wasting time and writing bout em in the blog, MY blog, want em to go jump in the lake by the way.
No, really!
But I just wonder what's into people these days- why do they .....ah..chuck it, whats worth 2 pence shudnt be talked abt.

Well, and I'm not in a mood to abuse right now. Feeling a li'l obtused...staying inside the charmed circle of life, stuck on with being stupid. Everyone's a little..ok, a lot pissed with me these days. "what did I do?"

Doesn't Matter.

Got a haircut lately, kinda like it- now ma hair is somewhat short- it gave me some change after 7 yrs of having long monotonous hair.
Went clubbing too back last week -i guess- was in a good mood that day- atleast- but those neurotic people closed down music at 12:30...ha ha....boo

Went out to a nice restaurant at pandara but I was feeling a li'l flown so din really eat nicely, which i regret by the way- n now i wish i could go n eat there- good food...yummiezz

So do i feel better?
I guess!- writing has always helped me
but maybe not this time-
ah umm maybe it did
er, hmph I don't know...

Its the I'm-a-little-crazy-Priyanka Phase on!!!

Mausam by Mehnaz

Mausam..hai Mausum jawaan
Mere sapno mein sapne jagaaye
Koi...aye yahan
leke mujhe dur jaaye

Mian hu tanha..Tanha dil hai
Koi mujhko churane to aaye

Saaya Tera... Saaya Mera
Sharma rahi hu main aise ki Jaise
tune mujhe kahin chhoo ke kaha...
Aaahaaaa!!

----the weather is sooo good!!!

THE NEW LOOK!!!

Been trying to make my blog look different for quite sometime now...mann!! its a kamar-todh job...
the comment area is gone but you guys (hello--ello-llo--o-oo *echo's back*)-uhumm no one's there to read - can post ur comments on the Tagboard- which indeed has been lying vacant ever since it was born...you know what...
eff you!!

Sooooo...thisss is my fusht blog since the Reformation-oh my god- I've given it a face lift sorta thing!!...

ALLL-yawn-RIGHT!!!... Enough of my calculations on the so called new look...no one bothers!! do i know that???? yeshhh!!

what else...college is good these days

I went to Metro Walk- Adventure Island ...what an adventure!!..well if you don't bother spending 270 bucks then go ahead twirl your heads...but it hurt me spending that much where splash means just two drops of water...haa!!

India Won the match yesterday- felt guuuhhhddd after a long time, i miss those times when there used to be fire crackers all over when India used to win a match...it felt the 'chakde India' feeling..the flick was nice!..Chautala rocked---bhains ki poonchh

US open is also on...go henin go!!!!
But I want Roddick to challenge Federer dis tym...nahh feddy is jus too good!!

mmm m hungry now...
for the lovers of mankind and angels of god- lemme kno how my blog is...hoohoo haa haa!!

yo!

The computer is infernal again!- (sorry hp)- and its a rotten piece of shit!!

It just deleted my whole post all by itself.

Well I was just wondering how lame has the whole crappy computer business gone- stuck up with 'wassup' and 'ciao' and all that stuff we have online.
So wat else? doesnt it seem that at one point of time we all will be looking for a better presentable answer to this profound question apart from 'nuthin much!!'

I mean c'mon life is better than 'nuthin much'!!
Everybody's life is glued up in msn n g-chats and everybody is wondering "whats up???"

What is new in the online life?- another account in facebook and what do i get??- insane amount of mails and messages telling me what others are doing in their life!!! okay yes i was exactly waiting for this to happen in my life!-uh wait- i forgot to say -Yay!!

..but blogging is different *stupid grin on my face*!!

Anyways moving on... right now my social life is also almost on an apocalypse..i go to college come back..again i go to college come back- though thts just temporary but whatever!!

I was never really a person that I am today- I am much more better- earlier, n thats like a few years ago, I used to be this very obnoxious, kiddish girl with loads of gibberish in head and I always tried to keep it within me as I didn't much know more than that. But it always came out when there were shit loads of brainy and witty people around- So Miss priyanka never really had a reputation-basically what was reputation???
then I learnt gossiping and bitching and back biting (well in a genuine way) and my life was ALLL better!!!!- I am suddenly a heroine (exaggerated word but whatever makes me happy...its my blog *pfrrt*)

Move on and chill!!! Life has indeed become this -atleast for me it is!!

Soon it'll be 50!!!

Now I never knew i'd be so into blogging...From a worn out diary to a sophisticated blog- alls been amazing- the pens tht didnt work but i still kept on writing and now the screwy cable net but i still keep on refreshing- alls been loved

Anyways, now how bout a better first day for your last year in college...
first of all i begin college too late only to expect back to back classes and a chatttttterrbox new teacher- she had to explain everything...

Me- Maa'm all other colleges get the optional paper choice, I want you to pressurize
the HOD a li'l bit so she can change her mind

She- i can talk to her but i can't pressurize, i would rather emphasise on her- u see theres
a difference

Me- *Oh I'm sorry i was just speaking English, I dunno how to speak *&%$^???*

then she does it again

Shradha- Maam the room in this block is a lil skimpy can u change the room to the other
block

She- You see the thing is that we have around 25 students, half of them dun show up usually
but if they do for instance say tomorrow we might need a bigger room so what I can do
is that find a room in the other block and switch.

Shradha- uh-ye-okkaayy *din't i say the same thing and save energy at the same time*

What solid entertainment!!

*yawn*...
Cya

The Candid Talk!!

I don't even know why did I even have the damn time to think that my college would be interesting after the long summer break- this is whats called height of boredom

Mission Cha-bar

It actually began with a hunt to find this place in the statesman building...I know advertising can be expensive but boss atleast tell you are watchman that there actually exists a place with that name!

And I couldn’t get any cheaper by asking for a lift from "STAR" and then describing his car as AC waali Lambi Gaadi...We r Indians, we're cheap! I mean what's new??!!

And so began the worthless talk-err-debate on what is the condition of our country, I mean come on… I haven’t seen myself talking some sense in like years- the last time I spoke sense was probably when I was in school and that too on stage about some terrorism discussion. Or Maybe when there was a total freakkkkked out hype for that social association AIESEC
So why do I call it worthless?
Because no one cares a shit about our opinions!

I mean what is the govt. giving us man?
A bunch of quotas for those minorities, which makes us into deeper shit because we see them join Jamia’s and Stephen’s and we just WATCH crows and birds fly outside the campus!!! is this what the majority of the population is getting??

What happened to all those who protested? a month long coverage on news channels????- FINISHED???? Waste of 100's of litres of water to push them back??

We don't need a PM like Manmohan 'Sonia' Singh

Not even a CM as Sheila Dikshit
does it matter to who is the PM or the CM...its always gonna be the same.

I don't say the American or Uk govt. is not corrupt but the people are happy- they get what they want, atleast to the limit.

Ok so we can boast about the metro, and all those Jazzy octopus Flyovers- but do we exactly have anything to THANK the govt. for???

Things I don't get bored doing...

Was watching an old season of friends today..
Had fun with me!
I just realised that there are a hell lotta things that i can't get over with...
doing them since like ages- still brings back the same old smile, the same old happiness back on on my face and i just love doing them without the intention of it!

You know..things like...

Laughing on the old Chandler-Joey jokes
or be it any episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
Eating Maggi
Watching Jo Jeeta wohi Sikandar or Andaz Apna Apna
Calling Anuradha and giving Missed Calls to Aditi
Talkin to Nishant on MSN
Hearing Neha call me "Pompie"! -It's just too fit to be stupid but i Love it!
Listening to Chandni Raatein at night....
Talking in Baby Voices!
Splashing water on Mom (she loves it- I looooovee it)
Finding Dads Chappals when they go deep under the bed. (hee hee)
Blogging!!!
Calling Mom "heroine" and "chhori"!
Calling Dad "uncle"!!
Mawaali Dancing on "Beedi"!!
Laughing on the stupidest Joke possible!
Singing "Allah ke Bande" in a Bhikari Voice!
Calling Popcorn as "Cokkom" and Chutney as "Chuntie"..
Commenting on "Baayees number waaley"....my sis will figure this out (hey Neha..isnt it fun???)
Abusing cutely...."Ullu Patta" and "fook you"

Oh Gawd- I'm laughing so hard now
Are you??- ha!! as if i care! *Fook you*

kheeeeee!! <---- I love saying this too!!

Resurrection...

A lot has changed when i last sat down and "wrote".

Been busy. Been thoughful. Been angry. Been upset. Been joyed. Been OVER-joyed. Been subversive. Been Cranky (n believe me been this the most). Been crazy (as always). Been sensible. Been Talkative (what-ative??), Been Religous. Been hateful. Been Intimidated. Been Nervous. Been Abusive. Been Transgressive. Been Smitten. Been Excruciating. (hey i know a lotta adjectives!!! so lemme add.....) Been Reading Newspapers!!!
Been Me!!!!!

I have realised how things mess up that easily but when you Believe.. they are okay the next minute.

I have entered a space where I am supposed to feel good and feel insecure the same time. Last year of my college (which has already been fucked...umm not so much in the past 2 years), and the last chance i get to see me settled somwhere. To decide that SOMEWHERE is SOMETHING.

The PR i work in these days is keeping me busy. Away from HBO and STAR MOVIES which was getting on my nerves. Also keeping me away from a good night sleep- which again is getting on my nerves.
Days go by like a superfast train witout stoppages. Fixing my room, Making tea for Mom, Dancing on Himesh Reshammiya numbers (try this out its the best stress buster, better than alcohol, you'll end up laughing so hard!), Watching NatGeo with Dad- all's being missed these days-Honestly!
Never mind- it's temporary!

Radio one has vanished into thin air like a magical pixie horse!!

Life's too busy to die!!!
But Life's just shitting around with everbody- I'm telling you!!...It'll end!!

So am I back with a Bang????
(haha as if the population of india waits fr my blog than Ekta Kapoor's unimaginable mess)

Goodie byebye