A Pigment of the colour of Life!

You know what is really weird?
That everybody on this planet has to deal with something or the other that isn't supposed to happen in their life.
But it happens.
All you can do is snap out of it. or keep Knowing that it happened.
The choice is ours. Yours.

Sometimes some things are Wrong but you know you can't deal without them. It just can't happen then!
Sometimes you know its not Right but you can't help.
Knowing that something is wrong and something is not right are two different things. Think about it.
But they have happened. are happening. will happen.
Life is THAT!

Someone said this to me today-

"Don't be afraid of doing anything that is not wrong, and its you who decides what is wrong and right, because it will always be about you!"

Unexpected wisdom out of someone. But it had implications. Not that I am in a situation that had this blog as an outcome, but you just learn like that.
Making decisions, trying to figure yourselves out- it takes a whole lifetime- and when you've known what YOU have been all about- it's all gone.

There are time in My life that makes a difficult situation. It's because I created it. But sometimes when I fall in one- its hard!

Just learn Life. slowly.

Krrrr-aaappp is the word!!!

SNAP in 2 months-oh Crap!
Final year- Oh crap!
What next- oh crap!
Everyone's preparing for either CAT or CA...and me- oh crap!
First semester gone- oh crap!
I'm gonna be 20 in like 12 days- oh-holy-shitty-smelly-bog blob of crap!!!!

This isn't exactly a poem by the way.

I don't wanna be 20!!! twenty- eww puke. nineTEEN- this is cool. I took one year to digest the fact that I'm older than eighteen and after I got over it I am 20... *nahiiiiiiii*!!! huh!

Anyways, its just 2 more days for the autumn break- its no autumn but its still called that way- weird!
so just wanna have fun these two days in colg- it'll be off for 15 days after tht!! Wow...
Shradha wouldn't come the whole of October and November- boo hoo!!....its her sis' marriage n shes preparing for CAT so she has to cope up with everything.

Apart from that everything is upside down for me. What the hell am I supposed to do now??? I didn't enrol for CAT so sweet dreams to me, I'm not a Mathemagician and Accountamagician and a psychedelic geek so cant opt for CA too...I guess i'll umm do err maybe hmm- crap!

So basically Im just hanging on between big potty stuff- I guess those philo uncles and aunties were right - Life IS tough!!!

The only thing that isn't crap is----as follows------

INDIAAAAAAAA WONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wooooooooooooooooooooo-hoooooooooooooooooooooo--yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeHawwwwwwwwwwwww

It was soo much funnnnn---- We Beat the PAKISTANIS--- yeah baby!!!
The thrilll the fun the excitement....mannn!!!....Loved Bhajji's dance....hehe

And I got this Sms tht day n thot it was worth sharing:
Knock Knock
Who's there?
Misbah
Misbah who?
Miss ba 5 runs!!!!

LoL

It felt good looking at the fire crackers that day- even I burst a few....hee hee!!
Goodie!!

I'll jus scram!

Too long...

My number of blogs have got reduced or sumthin...n its been really long since i wrote the last one.
Anyways, lots been happening...with me, with others, with sum ppl i dun bother about and some whom i dun give a*you know what*. I don't understand why people really care so much to bother others when their own life is nuthin but a huggggeee JEEERO..heh heh
and i dun really wanna make them 'influenced' by wasting time and writing bout em in the blog, MY blog, want em to go jump in the lake by the way.
No, really!
But I just wonder what's into people these days- why do they .....ah..chuck it, whats worth 2 pence shudnt be talked abt.

Well, and I'm not in a mood to abuse right now. Feeling a li'l obtused...staying inside the charmed circle of life, stuck on with being stupid. Everyone's a little..ok, a lot pissed with me these days. "what did I do?"

Doesn't Matter.

Got a haircut lately, kinda like it- now ma hair is somewhat short- it gave me some change after 7 yrs of having long monotonous hair.
Went clubbing too back last week -i guess- was in a good mood that day- atleast- but those neurotic people closed down music at 12:30...ha ha....boo

Went out to a nice restaurant at pandara but I was feeling a li'l flown so din really eat nicely, which i regret by the way- n now i wish i could go n eat there- good food...yummiezz

So do i feel better?
I guess!- writing has always helped me
but maybe not this time-
ah umm maybe it did
er, hmph I don't know...

Its the I'm-a-little-crazy-Priyanka Phase on!!!

Mausam by Mehnaz

Mausam..hai Mausum jawaan
Mere sapno mein sapne jagaaye
Koi...aye yahan
leke mujhe dur jaaye

Mian hu tanha..Tanha dil hai
Koi mujhko churane to aaye

Saaya Tera... Saaya Mera
Sharma rahi hu main aise ki Jaise
tune mujhe kahin chhoo ke kaha...
Aaahaaaa!!

----the weather is sooo good!!!

THE NEW LOOK!!!

Been trying to make my blog look different for quite sometime now...mann!! its a kamar-todh job...
the comment area is gone but you guys (hello--ello-llo--o-oo *echo's back*)-uhumm no one's there to read - can post ur comments on the Tagboard- which indeed has been lying vacant ever since it was born...you know what...
eff you!!

Sooooo...thisss is my fusht blog since the Reformation-oh my god- I've given it a face lift sorta thing!!...

ALLL-yawn-RIGHT!!!... Enough of my calculations on the so called new look...no one bothers!! do i know that???? yeshhh!!

what else...college is good these days

I went to Metro Walk- Adventure Island ...what an adventure!!..well if you don't bother spending 270 bucks then go ahead twirl your heads...but it hurt me spending that much where splash means just two drops of water...haa!!

India Won the match yesterday- felt guuuhhhddd after a long time, i miss those times when there used to be fire crackers all over when India used to win a match...it felt the 'chakde India' feeling..the flick was nice!..Chautala rocked---bhains ki poonchh

US open is also on...go henin go!!!!
But I want Roddick to challenge Federer dis tym...nahh feddy is jus too good!!

mmm m hungry now...
for the lovers of mankind and angels of god- lemme kno how my blog is...hoohoo haa haa!!

yo!

The computer is infernal again!- (sorry hp)- and its a rotten piece of shit!!

It just deleted my whole post all by itself.

Well I was just wondering how lame has the whole crappy computer business gone- stuck up with 'wassup' and 'ciao' and all that stuff we have online.
So wat else? doesnt it seem that at one point of time we all will be looking for a better presentable answer to this profound question apart from 'nuthin much!!'

I mean c'mon life is better than 'nuthin much'!!
Everybody's life is glued up in msn n g-chats and everybody is wondering "whats up???"

What is new in the online life?- another account in facebook and what do i get??- insane amount of mails and messages telling me what others are doing in their life!!! okay yes i was exactly waiting for this to happen in my life!-uh wait- i forgot to say -Yay!!

..but blogging is different *stupid grin on my face*!!

Anyways moving on... right now my social life is also almost on an apocalypse..i go to college come back..again i go to college come back- though thts just temporary but whatever!!

I was never really a person that I am today- I am much more better- earlier, n thats like a few years ago, I used to be this very obnoxious, kiddish girl with loads of gibberish in head and I always tried to keep it within me as I didn't much know more than that. But it always came out when there were shit loads of brainy and witty people around- So Miss priyanka never really had a reputation-basically what was reputation???
then I learnt gossiping and bitching and back biting (well in a genuine way) and my life was ALLL better!!!!- I am suddenly a heroine (exaggerated word but whatever makes me happy...its my blog *pfrrt*)

Move on and chill!!! Life has indeed become this -atleast for me it is!!

Soon it'll be 50!!!

Now I never knew i'd be so into blogging...From a worn out diary to a sophisticated blog- alls been amazing- the pens tht didnt work but i still kept on writing and now the screwy cable net but i still keep on refreshing- alls been loved

Anyways, now how bout a better first day for your last year in college...
first of all i begin college too late only to expect back to back classes and a chatttttterrbox new teacher- she had to explain everything...

Me- Maa'm all other colleges get the optional paper choice, I want you to pressurize
the HOD a li'l bit so she can change her mind

She- i can talk to her but i can't pressurize, i would rather emphasise on her- u see theres
a difference

Me- *Oh I'm sorry i was just speaking English, I dunno how to speak *&%$^???*

then she does it again

Shradha- Maam the room in this block is a lil skimpy can u change the room to the other
block

She- You see the thing is that we have around 25 students, half of them dun show up usually
but if they do for instance say tomorrow we might need a bigger room so what I can do
is that find a room in the other block and switch.

Shradha- uh-ye-okkaayy *din't i say the same thing and save energy at the same time*

What solid entertainment!!

*yawn*...
Cya

The Candid Talk!!

I don't even know why did I even have the damn time to think that my college would be interesting after the long summer break- this is whats called height of boredom

Mission Cha-bar

It actually began with a hunt to find this place in the statesman building...I know advertising can be expensive but boss atleast tell you are watchman that there actually exists a place with that name!

And I couldn’t get any cheaper by asking for a lift from "STAR" and then describing his car as AC waali Lambi Gaadi...We r Indians, we're cheap! I mean what's new??!!

And so began the worthless talk-err-debate on what is the condition of our country, I mean come on… I haven’t seen myself talking some sense in like years- the last time I spoke sense was probably when I was in school and that too on stage about some terrorism discussion. Or Maybe when there was a total freakkkkked out hype for that social association AIESEC
So why do I call it worthless?
Because no one cares a shit about our opinions!

I mean what is the govt. giving us man?
A bunch of quotas for those minorities, which makes us into deeper shit because we see them join Jamia’s and Stephen’s and we just WATCH crows and birds fly outside the campus!!! is this what the majority of the population is getting??

What happened to all those who protested? a month long coverage on news channels????- FINISHED???? Waste of 100's of litres of water to push them back??

We don't need a PM like Manmohan 'Sonia' Singh

Not even a CM as Sheila Dikshit
does it matter to who is the PM or the CM...its always gonna be the same.

I don't say the American or Uk govt. is not corrupt but the people are happy- they get what they want, atleast to the limit.

Ok so we can boast about the metro, and all those Jazzy octopus Flyovers- but do we exactly have anything to THANK the govt. for???

Things I don't get bored doing...

Was watching an old season of friends today..
Had fun with me!
I just realised that there are a hell lotta things that i can't get over with...
doing them since like ages- still brings back the same old smile, the same old happiness back on on my face and i just love doing them without the intention of it!

You know..things like...

Laughing on the old Chandler-Joey jokes
or be it any episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
Eating Maggi
Watching Jo Jeeta wohi Sikandar or Andaz Apna Apna
Calling Anuradha and giving Missed Calls to Aditi
Talkin to Nishant on MSN
Hearing Neha call me "Pompie"! -It's just too fit to be stupid but i Love it!
Listening to Chandni Raatein at night....
Talking in Baby Voices!
Splashing water on Mom (she loves it- I looooovee it)
Finding Dads Chappals when they go deep under the bed. (hee hee)
Blogging!!!
Calling Mom "heroine" and "chhori"!
Calling Dad "uncle"!!
Mawaali Dancing on "Beedi"!!
Laughing on the stupidest Joke possible!
Singing "Allah ke Bande" in a Bhikari Voice!
Calling Popcorn as "Cokkom" and Chutney as "Chuntie"..
Commenting on "Baayees number waaley"....my sis will figure this out (hey Neha..isnt it fun???)
Abusing cutely...."Ullu Patta" and "fook you"

Oh Gawd- I'm laughing so hard now
Are you??- ha!! as if i care! *Fook you*

kheeeeee!! <---- I love saying this too!!

Resurrection...

A lot has changed when i last sat down and "wrote".

Been busy. Been thoughful. Been angry. Been upset. Been joyed. Been OVER-joyed. Been subversive. Been Cranky (n believe me been this the most). Been crazy (as always). Been sensible. Been Talkative (what-ative??), Been Religous. Been hateful. Been Intimidated. Been Nervous. Been Abusive. Been Transgressive. Been Smitten. Been Excruciating. (hey i know a lotta adjectives!!! so lemme add.....) Been Reading Newspapers!!!
Been Me!!!!!

I have realised how things mess up that easily but when you Believe.. they are okay the next minute.

I have entered a space where I am supposed to feel good and feel insecure the same time. Last year of my college (which has already been fucked...umm not so much in the past 2 years), and the last chance i get to see me settled somwhere. To decide that SOMEWHERE is SOMETHING.

The PR i work in these days is keeping me busy. Away from HBO and STAR MOVIES which was getting on my nerves. Also keeping me away from a good night sleep- which again is getting on my nerves.
Days go by like a superfast train witout stoppages. Fixing my room, Making tea for Mom, Dancing on Himesh Reshammiya numbers (try this out its the best stress buster, better than alcohol, you'll end up laughing so hard!), Watching NatGeo with Dad- all's being missed these days-Honestly!
Never mind- it's temporary!

Radio one has vanished into thin air like a magical pixie horse!!

Life's too busy to die!!!
But Life's just shitting around with everbody- I'm telling you!!...It'll end!!

So am I back with a Bang????
(haha as if the population of india waits fr my blog than Ekta Kapoor's unimaginable mess)

Goodie byebye

Just another blog!


My phone has got some stupid problems- the handsfree don't connect, the charger has to be hit twice so it starts working!!! I love my phone though- Don't want to get it damaged anyhow!


Anyways I have started reading "To Kill a Mockingbird"-by Harper Lee. The beginning was head twisting but now that i'v read it a li'l bit its turning out to be a book i wanna "Finish"...

I never read novels in my life- whenever i started to read any either I would yawn 3 or 4 times and shut it or keep on reading till I realised I didn't know what was I doing!!

But the first books I DID finish was Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone followed by the Chamber of Secrets, then came Azkaban and my interest died- the era of unfinished books began again!!!

So I never really "LOVED" Potter series though i did manage to read the first two then it was all stupid- sorry to any Rowling fan out there!


Now that I've ended up being a literature student, quite contrary to what i portrayed myself in the aforesaid para's, so reading is now a part of my life, and i have indeed enjoyed some novels in my course! I want to read "A Thousand Splendid Suns" by Khaled Hosseini now after i get done with mockingbird!
I even wanna read "Going to school in India" by Lisa Heydlauff- i have never seen a beautiful book than this, its been lying with me since 4 years and i haven't read it- stupid me!
Anyways I have officially become a film club member in the india habitat centre- just to explore what doc's and movies can enlight one with!
moreover i get to go to eatopia more often- i loved the tandoori chicken sandwich i had today!!!!!!! *sluuuurrrpppp*

Radio one is dead for a while (as in with me, not technically). They say I'll get a recording but forget it for days!!! *sigh*

chalo bye!

What happens if Usher and a "lungi" mix

Mindless blogging with provocative shit

Throughout life I haven’t really figured out a day when I’m really making sense. I might not be doing that RIGHT NOW, But sometimes Bullshit makes sense too.
What does the world need? A good amount of attitude, a good deal of false happiness and pride that makes THEM think they own the world or maybe just a li’l useless time to make them do all that’s nothing but worthless.
What is it with making a public blog and showing the world that you got talent- My FOOT! A li’l words here, a li’l words there- twist the language-use intricate words- basically don’t make sense and VOILA!!!- You are a wonderful writer. Oh –No WAIT- I wrote a poem that doesn’t make sense actually BUT it’s good!!!- what shame you’re not famous!!!! *two minute silence*
Literature (my subject) is something worthwhile- I know it’s the most boring thing to do but I like it and I respect what Shakespeare or Donne or other people have been doing. During Exams I can’t give the loudest voice for a “SHEEET” and wait for the world to look at me because I did a Nobel-prize winning deed. Oh gawdd she filled like what 10 sheets (extra)- what!!!… did you write in like an extra bold font or you wrote the story of rang de basanti in it?
The word sarcasm wasn’t really popular you know and now some people who have just known its meaning for like a day brag about it. Being sarcastic is Not a boon you losers- it isn’t actually “social”.

That’s what Biggies do as well- what’s different is that they just speak shit, as if it is all overconfident self-righteous wisdom. The attentive listeners keep making their eyes as tiny as a chink just to make the speaker more confident of his screech-uh sorry-SPEECH. Ahem. Ya I know you have placed your name somewhere in the realm of fame (as you call it) but you are no celebrity dude!

You know- when people actually refer to their friend-celebrity as “down to earth”, I can bet that they are the most high flown tempered people.

Ah it was yet another day when I don’t know if I made sense.

Why doesn't this silly template have a title option!!!

I was wet in the rain yesterday after soooooooooooooooooooo long...feltt soo good!
Had almost forgotten how the rain felt.

Was in college yesterday met some people, talked, explored....then went to barista (alone) i chaatofied the whole "indian express"- waited for anchal. then went to village cafe- nice time, good music!

The weather is sooo AAASUM- Makes me hear all oldies with a cup of coffee in hand....hmmm

Haridwar trip was cool, went for a safari as well- the roads were beautiful, nice way- but coudnt see anything except peacocks and deers in it. But have never been to a forest so it was amazing. The water was so cold there so it took me like an hour to actually put my feet in it. i love the "chhap chhap" stuff..heehee.

My results are gonna be out in like a month- shit scared- fuck hw did my exams go??- damn it!

-Amen

Campus RJ- or whatever!!!

Well that title wasn't actually supposed to be sarcastic but i dunno why i wrote it
Anyways the big thing(?) is that I was on air today fr like a minute- the bigger thing is how i fared in the studio
Gawd!!- I have this huge stage fright, i fumble i go mum n what not!!- been embaressed in school a lotta times, though this was a lot different than a stage- it was much more intimidating
See for yourself- a huge mic, a hugeee equipment, and the AC was freezing me to death- I was so nervous (M not like that) - made a joke outta me i think but still couldnt help it- m not a pro u kno. And who listens to radio one after all!!! (thats so cheap of me..hehe)
Anywaysss...
It wasn't anything big-
yes it was!
no it wasnt!!
yes it was!
NO it wasnt!!
(Maybe it was.n m goin crazy probably)

I got a li'l pissed too when I entered Radio One office today- when i travel miles i expect acknowledgment n no shit like its over!!!!! (hate it-was red with anger, i went to college splly to hav sumthin to sayy on air n i cant accept shittttt-NO WAY)

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (major mood swings by the way!!)
I got over my lost wallet....know how?????
An angel in disguise calls me up and tells me he found it n i can collect it frm him!!! (woo hoo yipeeee)
luckkkkkkkyyy day...luckyyy me!!
PHEW!!!

IN A ZAPPP!!

dont hv time to elaborate shit so m gonna jus rush in...i wanted to write so badly...

I lost my wallet today-FUCK FUCK!!! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk
lost almost a grand mannn......booooo hoooo
goin to haridwar tomorrow so hopin fr gud..
blaaaaaaaaah
byeee
*sniff sniff*
miss you

Missssed!!

Fuck Hell--> my immediate reaction when I came to know I missed my first recording...
I had a smile on my face but I was pissed off as well, mixed emotions you know.

Anyways I will get a call soon- as the Rj said....so its cool!!

Mom and Tennis...
It's Roland Garros time!! I love watching Tennis, a few years back I didn't even know the T of Tennis...all I knew was that there was something called a deuce...no miniature clue to why was it there in the game but it existed.
Now I know Everything from T to the S of it, so I love the game. It's Fun!!
Y'kno whats more fun...watching it with mom, she loves the game too but she has her interests in the cute blue and pink frocks of Sharapova and Vaidisova.
Yesterday during Hewitt's and Nieminen's match she saw Nieminen n said "aye haye chua sa lag raha hai!!!!" and then saw Hewitt n said "isko to chaar din se khaana nahi mila!!!" loll
She likes Federer!!--me too!!

The Sane Nonsense...
Anyways I'm gonna be Back to college tomo again being the reporter comma radio one campus Rj...I hope its a better weather man, the sun is sooo happily shining these days!!!

I made a nice friend frm the lot of campus Rj's...hoping she isn't like "others"...but there was one thing common among us- we both want to be independent from the shadows of those who call us our friends but aren't actually!
And you know what, Just be what you are, be the one you are proud of being, be independent, be confident of being alone, because one day you'll be stranded-you'll have nowhere to go and that'll be the day You will be Your best friend- It might have happened in your life, It might still happen in your life- Learn to be alone, become good, no, great friends with yourself.

Profundity- I have lived almost 20 yrs of my life- had amazing friends, good friends, nice friends and even ones who i can say i was in a diplomatic friendship with, but I am still not confident enough to call anyone my ultimate BEST friend- I am not exactly complaining- I love my Life, and I live it happily. I Don't abide by the maxim of a best friend, I think that one has him/her eventually!!

ah well- it really is easy to speak shit isn't it!!!

~*~added 16 minutes later~*~
Coincidence: On Orkut
Today's fortune:
He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals

No you don't mean nothing at all to me!!!

*You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall*

-Say it right...Nelly Furtado

Loving this dese days, amazing beats!

Anyways the radio thingy is going okay these days, liked the studio - met lotsa ppl from lotsa colleges - some ver cool enough to have a chat with, some not so much!
going to college is fun and lame at once- fun coz its gud to get insider news n stuff n report n shit but lame cuz college mein "na banda na bande ki jaat"... Shaheeeeed bhagat singh
But still i'm liking it- N i dun care a shit that its in hindi!!! gimme a goddam break yaar!

know whats wierd- radio one keeps tuned in at home now (hv no clue why)-umm not tht its a bad station but never heard it so devotionally ever before (no hard feelings by the way)... The Rj was cool enough, what was the most elevating thing was I'd get to go to parties (you know free fun, free food, free dancing--- what the fuck FREE BOOZE MAN!!!-aherrmm m a gud gurl okay *fluttering eyes*) but will have to wait n see whether that was a saying or they really meant it.

I noticed one thing, does it reallly matter what college you are from- does it???
Does a Hindu Or a Stephen give you your Guts or does it give you a brand? Or does it remain oblivious to the fact that you spent 3 yrs in it n no one even cares.
I hate when people note the minute things in life and forget who they really are, who cares if you wear goddam cheapest of clothes but have a smart million dollar mind- i say no intelligence, when i say smart i mean smart, i mean dont-ya-mess-with-ME mind

Anyways here i hear furtado again 5th time in a row (that's the problem with me I hear a good song so much in one day that then it starts piercing my ears n i don't play it for long.)
.....
uh sorry its the 6th!

F.i.n.a.l.l.y.---

no complaints
no cribbing
and no more "nothing-to-do-blogs"

From finding and searching and questing for a summer job, i finally got one without an effort- imagine the irony!
i remember i once wrote i wish i was an RJ

GUESS WHAT!!!
I AM!!!!!!

....well almost..i just joined radio one 94.3 fm for the summer
I am going to be a campus RJ- now how cool is that!!!
It will take a lotta sweaty shit coz its a soaring sun out there n i'll have to interview the gonna-be-college-ppl, hoppin here n there, reportin n even being on air! (excited and nervous!)
but its gonna be worth it i guess!
(By the way Nidhi- if ur reading- thanks loads!!)

So m gonna attend a meeting tomorrow in CP...whoopies
gearing up fr it!!
so wht shud i wear tomo!!! (hehehe)

YOU KNOW YOU DON'T HAVE A LOT TO DO FOR THE TIME BEING WHEN:

1. You watch any cheezy movie on the tv, I watched mohra yesterday *eyes wide open now*.
2. You open your mailbox every 2 minutes waiting for a miracle that'll tell you how to keep yourself busy!
3. You have no one online in your messenger, and you add yourself to make it look better.*oh Gawd*
4. You sleep half the day out and still feel lazy when you have some work, accidentally!!
5. Your cell phone is dead, the only time it rings is when Hutch Uncle sends you a "win-a-scorpio" message- or when the Aunty calls you with a biggest HI.
6. You have memorized the schedule of all the TV channels.
7. You don't have anything better than write this on your blog.
8. You keep on writing bullshit to stretch it to atleast a TEN.
9. You Send your resume's to people for a summer job you know will never respond. (That exactly isn't lame but then...whatever)
10. You have a faded smile on your lips considering you have reached TEN.

*Doesn't get any better-i am listening to an Anu Malik Song*