Monday, February 25, 2008


Fewest of words, Nicest of things.

First of all something is really wrong with my blogger or my computer. Doesn't allow me to give spaces between paragraphs. Irritating.

Anyways, I just received an email. Cheered me up, made me happy. Been low since like a week now but just needed that bit of a.... 'Consolation?????'..err..okay I'll need the dictionary for this one...yeah thats it...'Comfort'!!!! lame word for a dictionary sooo....'Gratification'...per se!!

Missing some stuff too much. But I'm starting to get okay with it. have to.

Just saw Devil wears Prada (for the first time)..amazing flick. There are some strange noises in my home. seems like someone is squeaking the door or knocking. Strange coz no ones home. Okay now I'm scared!

Someone asked me of GOD today. I am not an atheist but I also don't believe that there is a 'kind-of God' but sometimes in peace I do talk to some unknown power and even though I don't get answered back, I tend to find a way to my problems. I love it. For me that is GOD.

I wanna ask this question to...umm...who ever who passes by my blog. Anyone. If you were told its your last day in the world and you're given the last chance of doing something-ANYTHING. what would it be?

P.S.- Not expecting a lotta comments but would love if some could reply. Also, add what do you think of God.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Expect the Unexpected.
The movie was not hyped. Infact eveyone said its gonna bomb but I think its one of the most beautiful movies I have seen.
The critics have gone totally crazy, they are selfish and they don't even deserve to be called critics. DT said that an emperor is doing a jig at his own wedding. Well open your eyes buddy, is that really a dance??? I'm shocked DT hires such people who calls that a boogie woogie. It's the magic of his God that enchants him, he dances because he is meditating and so are the others. Hrithik Roshan's acting is par excellence, he has worked hard and the role of Jalaluddin Muhammad Akbar is as charismatic as it should be. The places he has to be soft he is as soft as a feather but when he is a tyrant- nobody's business. Aishwarya Rai has acted well in limits, her independence and her want of freedom comes out well without making us feel it was unusual in 1500 BC.
The screenplay is not isolated, its into segments but Gowarikar has bound them and keeps the movie going on without exhausting the audience for 3 hours 20 minutes. The music is amazing, songs emerge only when required and the rest of the job is fulfilled by the background music fillers. The cinematography is beautiful- just one word. The sets, jewelry are already in news.
About the whole 'bawaal' going on about the film, only those are doing it who are unemployed and those who have no brains. Watch the movie with the spirit of just watching a movie. Its entertainment and not a reason to start bringing the dead alive. there is absolutely nothing controversial about it.

Thursday, February 14, 2008



Wednesday, February 13, 2008


Radio passtime!
Well, one of my latest passtimes has been listening to radio when I'm outta sleep and trust me nothing better than it. Why?? Because you'll hear all sorts and types and species of people coming up with their problems- so called! Love Guru, and stuff like that. lol
Anyways , some of them do have genuine problems but then calling someone you don't know? does it really help?
I'm Just curious about what to do here:
There was this girl who was in love with someone else and her parents engaged her to someone else. Her eldest sister was divorced and her other elder sister had problems with her marriage too (on the rocks types). Her father was outta job and bankrupt. Regarding all this she didn't have the courage to tell her parents that she didn't like the guy they decided for her. She wanted to marry the guy her parents thought for her coz she didn't wanna add to her parents' problems. Phew! I'm kinda sorry for her and I'm not making fun of her. Without any intentions I was just wondering how big problems are for people. I had just fought with a friend that day and I actually called him back to say that there are so many bigger problems to worry about and so many smaller things to thank God for.
I might sound really hindi filmi type but yeahhh I did that!
She had a solution for herself. She would marry the guy she didn't like and join a BPO job where she could stay outta the house. ???!!??!!!
I'm actually kinda avoiding songs on the radio too and this show I think on Meoww plays no songs during it. Sudden songs bring back sweet memories. I'm avoiding songs that could make me cry!
A suggestion: If you ever get to watch Sisterhood of travelling pants... Watch it! it's beautiful, not that its related to radio..its just a random suggestion. It's important for friends, for having friends!
Getting used to it.
Things have changed a as I write todays blog. Somewhere I wonder why I never write so much about it, also why I have never mentioned it. But again I really can't write it. Its a public blog.
No more running out receiving calls, no more eyes waiting on the cell phone display, No more interest in picking up the phone now- I sound as if I have lost my cellphone. lol.
But I'm hanging on.
Till then I have to do a lotta stuff.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008


I have attempted to start this blog with a million lines, none of it looking good and none of it meaning what I really feel like writing. This is TAKE 15:

Year after year, change from a school to college, from college to professional places of work, have all taught me new things, made me learn myself, and lately I learnt something new about myself- My subservience...

There are some who know they can be influential and some who are no great shakes. I don't blame anyone for directing others on what's right or what's wrong. I don't blame anyone for circumscribing a definite set of convictions they feel is important for people to follow. I don't cry and crave all my life waiting for a helping hand to tell me why 'this and that' is happening in my life. I simply don't wait for stuff to happen. It happens.

I don't need a list of do's and don’ts to make me like someone. I don't need price banners and name-tags to rate people as wanted or unwanted. I don't see a self-stereotyped image in front of me waiting just for me to come and judge it. I don't hate someone and like them the next moment just because they did something that fell in my "do's" list. I don't like someone because they mentioned a few good words and hate them the next moment because they did something in my "don’ts" list.

It's pretty easy to be influential but it’s hard to require an influence.

It's not as easy as it looks.

I have been a rigid one when it comes making myself understand. Never had the guts to say what I want to, always been trying to make others comfortable- some who are influential and some no great shakes. It has indeed been my fault. My subservience. I don't really ask for compliance with me. Neither have I felt small in front of anyone, as the simple saying goes I am what I am. I was never this before, I was everything but distressing on simple small matters. Now I get thinking. Why??

Am I stupid? Does anyone even know me? Do I need a miracle to support me on something I wish, that someone is there? Will I always be the same me- nodding my head to what people say and following them so that everything is simple? Will I always look for a way without reason to show someone I am something too? Will I keep trying hard not to be me but everyone else around me so that one starts looking at me differently? Why doesn't doing something on my own make me feel proud? Why do I feel I'm nothing when I'm me? Does not writing what I really believe and writing what I see make all the difference for me? Will making others understand and does showing them I care makes everyone forget I need it the most? Do I need a conscience which is my best friend? Do I need to show the world that I'm something when I'm actually not? Do I have to confide in others to know about myself? I hope no one reads this part because I don't have the guts and understanding to answer these questions.
I am nothing but NOTHING.

There is a desire to shift towards something to change for the better. I don't need that desire. I intend to call it as synonymous with a disease, Influenza, because we have to learn to stand for ourselves. No one's your friend here. I despise those who think it's their world to make and break. Be yourself.

I need to be more of me now. It's time!

(P.S.- the last thing I wanted was this in yellow)

Monday, February 04, 2008


Mission succesful!

Thats what the Brownie cake seemed like and it was yum yum!!!

Anyways...lots been happenin lately. My cousins were over frm Mumbai and the whole week it was madness...late nights, open cards, housie....etc etc....
Missing Neha a lot!

Saw this Lindsay Lohan movie...I know who killed me. The effect? I couldn't even remember the name of the movie 2 hrs after watching it. It was pretty decent in the first half but I got lost in the second. Then came the time for a night out with two silent boxes...hmmph. No comments.

I wanna go shopping so bad...I'm rich these days!! hehe and its a sale season too....what else do I need. company!!!!!!! anyone interested????

I'd rather calm down now...and maybe come up with something better to write next time...

*yawn* seeya!!!